You are perfect.
I’m leaving for Montreal tomorrow. Break’s been unusually long this year, but I’m glad I didn’t go to Tanzania after all. I had the most trying semester of my McGill career. I really needed to just lounge and as great as it would have been to do that on the slopes of Kili, I think my parents might have gotten in the way of the lounging/reassessing-my-life process. I did surprisingly well on my finals and my marks are a lot better than I expected.
So what’s the matter then? Well i’m coming up on my last semester ever and I kind of want it to be incredibly memorable and heavily productive at the same time. I multitask by nature. I can never do just a few things. I do it to feel like i’m really living, I have this insatiable need to overload but this often leads to many an emotional breakdown. I must find a way to throw myself into everything wholly without completely burning out and wanting to die (mild exaggeration). I think just knowing it’s the last semester ever will ease some of the stress, but I just really have high expectations for what I want to get out of it. Here are some things that need to happen during the semester:
1) Secure a job/internship for the summer
2) Record some songs that I’ve written
3) Spend legit quality time with all my friends and really make it count before we all disappear
4) Foster relationships with musicians I respect in the hopes of future collaborations
5) Play more around live music venues
6) Graduate with a reasonable GPA and minimal stress
7) Work out a couple times a week
So that’s the short list i.e. what is most important right now. I’m worried, but I know that in 2012 I really have to be in go-mode and surprisingly enough, I want to be. This isn’t just a classic case of me fearing parental disapproval (well, not entirely anyway), I really want to DO things. Not so much new year’s resolutions as…getting the ball rolling for life goals really.
C’est tout. Wish me luck.